Thailand trip: 3 in 1 package

last night, some of my friends gave me a surprise visit/inuman. Drinking is my vice but not my addiction. I just seem like an alcoholic but im not :) what im addicted to is my friends, the company. i like being around them, i mean who doesn't? ok so we were having a real good time. i was sitting in my chair looking straight but it felt like i was riding a roller coaster ride. i drank too much. oooops i drank soooo much that i ended up hugging the toilet and showering it with my love from inside out, if you know what i mean?:) Trying to make myself stand after hugging the toilet, made me feel lonely and not so excited of what saturday and the weeks after may bring. this is when i proved that a toilet is a thinking chair.

i get a loud wake up call from my dad "Giannina! tumayo ka diyan!" to cut it short, i got scolded. i wasnt suppose to drink for a month but i did and i got wasted. i didnt tell them i was going to drink. basically its my fault. im sorry. "Give me one good reason kung bakit papayagan pa kita pumunta ng thailand?"

I get to travel, i get to dance. and i get to do one of my dreams...to teach kids hiphop. Riding that plane means a dream becoming true. (the 3 in 1 package)

Thailand, here i come.

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Thank you Lord for giving me this talent, and thank you for making dreams come true :) lab yu sobra mehn!

habang nakainom II

gusto ko lang ilabas ang lahat ng nararamdaman ko. so kung nababasa mo ito. SHHHHH

sinubukan ko ang the bar strawberry, masarap siya. ang bango sobra. wala naman amats pero masarap magsulat ng naka-inom.

hirap akong aminin sa sarili, kung kaya't mas mahirap na sabihin ko sa iba.

di ko kayang tanggapin na mawawala ka na sa akin, napakasakit na marining na ayaw mo na sa akin kaya't heto ako basang basa sa ulan, walang masisilungan. pero ulaaaaaaaaaan sinong di mapapasayaw sa ulan?

ang ibig ko sabihin is i dont get it. hindi ka naman kagwapuhan, katalinuhan, hindi ka naman mabango, hindi ka rin ganun kasaya kausap kasi hindi ka good conversationalist and not a really good personality. sometimes you're a douche bag! alam kong mawawala ka sakin, knowing you? masakit pero hindi naman napakasakit, istorbo ka lang kasi sa isipan. leche. kaya the other day nung pumarty si basyang dito medyo feel na feel ko ang rain drops :)) pero syempre dahil i love the rain inenjoy ko ang moment kaya happy pa rin ako. back to the point, i dont get it.

so after ilang shots. maybe its because i cant have you. naiinis ako kasi pag may crush ako, alam kong magkakagusto din sakin. confident? pero oo, bihira ako magkacrush. hindi ko alam bakit. i feel like im the cruela deville having her meddling ways to get what she wants. oh but you didnt fall for the trap. and like most cruela deville plans, it would seem to get there but it wouldn't. you almost fell in the pit. dapat tinulak na kita...1st fall mo na dapat yun oh!

i sound like im a pissed brat. and thats not a good picture...

i dont know if i like you, like you or i like you because you're challenging or i like the challenge but not you.

i dont get it.