your accomplished plan

saturday
i knew you were in. i was that sure that you're getting out of that place quickly, you were strong. siguro, it was my mistake to be that sure that you were strong.

sunday
i was so excited to celebrate with my cousins in laguna. but then we got a call, a phone call. when i saw my mom wear her sunglasses, and a tear drop fell. i knew it was call, a call that came from the heart.

i saw you inside, all weak and could hardly breathe. you know how much pain it caused me? that man of steel in my mind, my idol. right there! i couldnt look at you but i my eyes were locked on you. it crumpled my heart like an old piece of paper.

i went back home, and i couldnt sleep. i wanted to be there in the waiting room, i wanted to take the whole shift. just to wait for you come out. i knew you were coming out.

sunday to monday
9pm -4am. visiting hours was over, but i dont care. i still went in to see you. i saw you in pain. i wanted to hold your hand, but i know fragile you were. the nurse was there and i knew she wanted me out, but i dont care. i want to see you. im content.

papa, tumayo ka na diyan. strong ka! alam kong kaya mo.

10am, yaya nini woke me up because there was another call. i answered and mom said your stomach was giving up already. i was waking up dad, but he just budged. i didnt know what to do already. i didnt know what i was doing. i got up, dressed up. i wanted be back where you were! another call, cardiac arrest. my dad got up

in the car. my dad and i were telling stories. but then a sudden silence came, we were both quiet. we got to the parking lot of the place, dad wanted me to go up first. but i said no. i guess i just couldnt see you like that in that state anymore.

papa, diba? tatayo ka na? bakit hindi ka pa tumatayo.

ayaw kitang bulungan. kasi tatayo ka pa eh. kasi magbibingo pa tayo eh, kasi kakausapin mo pa ako. lelecturan tungkol sa buhay.

1:14. ang cold mo naman! umalis ka na lang. di mo na kami kinakausap. bakit ka ganyan?

tuesday
dami mong friends.

wednesday.

nabalitaan ko na you wanted us to have lunch that sunday before going to the place. you wanted all of us to be together but your body was giving up saturday pa lang.
you told your doctors your coming in after lunch

you left us after lunch. we were all together.
thats what you wanted, that was your plan.