pianist

touch the right notes and we'll make music
press the right keys, pleasing you and me
play and make love to the instrument
gently but firmly fondle every range

let the melody sink in so start slow
feel whats with in and sway to the rhythm
closed eyes as you caress every tune
listening to your every heartbeat

hit the highest note to the lowest one
serenade me 'til the morning sun
the movement of your fingers draw me in
i go unstable as it reaches that perfect tone

dazzled i am with the squint of smile you display
hypnotized in the lovely music you play
o' dear pianist you lift my soul high
you have that charm that makes my heart fly...

Usapang lasing

Nagkataon na araw ng puso ko bukas. araw ng mga puso natin.
naiwan kaming tatlong magkaibigan, hindi kami iniwan pinili lang namin na hindi sumama.
Dala ng lungkot, nagkayayaan uminom. takte tatlo lang kami uminom.

Inuman friend 1:
"Namimiss ko siya" wala ng lalabo pa sa statement na yan pag ang nagsabi niyan ay isang lasing. malabo kasi bibitaw ka, tapos mamimiss mo. malabo kasi kaya mo sabihin samin pero sakanya hindi. malabo kasi hanggang hangin lang ang abot ng salita mo, walang pupuntahan.

Inuman friend 2:
"baka mapakilala mo naman ako sa friends mong girls?" sagot ko "mahalin mo muna sarili mo kasi hindi mo kakayanin na pag nawala na yung taong mahal mo. yung lalagyan mo ng pagmamahal, pag nawala yun mawawala ka din"

Ako: sa bawat tagay at shot na nilalagok natin...onti onti natin natatanggap ang mga katotohanan na pilit nating tinatago, at tinatakpan ng ngiti at saya.

Inuman friends: wow...lasing ka na nicole

ako: siguro nga. Cheers

Masarap kang magmahal

Labi mo't labi ko'y nagdidikit
Hawak ang katawan mo ako'y nanginginig
Iisa ang nilalaman ng ating dibdib
Parehong nilalanghap na hangin

Ikaw ang hanap sa araw at gabi
Dating mo ay nakakahumali
Sa haplos mo dahan dahan akong namamatay
Wala akong kalabanlaban, walang kamalaymalay

Bakit sa bawat kanto ng buhay, dumarating ka?
Nakakabaliw ka, tama na
Gusto kong tapusin na ito
Ayokong dumepende sa iyo...

Masarap kang magmahal
Pero ako'y nasasakal
Nahihirapan, nanghihina
Ikaw ang nagiisang dahilan

Gusto kita pero di mahal
Masaya akong nakilala ka
Hanggang dun na lang aking makakaya
Wag mo na sana akong akitin pa...

When you’re in a shit hole

Have you ever experienced sitting in class and being quiet? When in reality you’re not that type of person. You’re not quiet, you’re usually the one making noise. The one that the teacher hushes during classes. Well it happened to me. That’s when I started thinking…

You get into high school or college and you find your “comfort zone” among the many faces in the crowd. But you have to be careful for those faces can turn to evil glares when you turn your back. Sometimes this jolly person you see, is the number back stabber you’ll ever meet. The person in the group who hangs on to anyone just to stay in the group wouldn’t be there for too long. The bossy will always be shut out. But those who learn to keep things to themselves and does not mind who they are with, will stay. Not necessarily the same crowd but they will stay. It’s hard to find strong friends, strong enough to take in the foul stench of your being.

I’m barely close with anybody because I don’t think I don’t have to be close with everybody. I’m a person hard to understand. That’s why only a few really know me. I’m not complaining, I’m informing. I always loved small circle of friends, it was always better that way. But my perky stature in the society draws in friends, and I can’t help but talk to them. Sometimes you need a breather from the same crowd, you want and find something new. I think this time, ill be thinking about myself. Putting me at the top of my priority list. I’ll think of pleasing myself and making me happy. I always cared for others, and I know I did my part already. Change is a very strong word, and if I do change for this, as long as I’m happy, I won’t change back. I can’t take back what has been lost, I can’t take back what has happened. I’ll just keep moving forward, and whoever stays with me in my journey of life, well I’m thankful and blessed to have you aboard.

Everybody has their shitty days.

lobo

tumitibok. tumatakbo. lumalayo. aalis. nalilito.

kelan kaya ako mapapagod

bawat oo may pait na balik

hindi na natuto

bawat isa ay iba

nagtatago sa likod ng ngiti ang sakit, mahirap

nahihirapan. hinihingal. naglalakad. naghahanap

di pa rin ako pagod

kasama ko nanaman ang sarili ko

magisa walang kasama

tatawa. mukhang ok, pero wala ng hangin ang lobo

sino magaabot ng bagong lobo na may hangin?

aantayin ko ang araw na yun.

sana sa pagdating mo, hindi pa rin ako napapagod.

ang pagmumura

ang pag mumura. bow

sa school, sa bahay o kung saan man.

maraming pangyayari at kaganapan.

di maiwasang magbitaw ng masamang salita

sa hayop, sa bagay, lalo na sa kapwa

nadapa na nga sinigaw mo pa (ay shit)

nagjoke na siya may pahabol ka pa (hahaha...tangina ang corny mo)

nagkita kayo ulit un ang greeting mo (putangina kamusta ka na)

higit sa lahat panimula at pandulo mo (ay gagi naiwan ko yung bag gago)

nakakatawa basahin, oo

pero tangga mo, gago.

alam mong mali ginagawa mo

batukan kita eh

sa mga pinalaki ng magulang

sa mga may pinagaralan (kahit 123 o abc lang haha joke)

hindi mo ikagaganda o ikagwawapo 

ang pag mumura mo. 

i thank you. bow

- ako, april 2008

im no hypocrite. 

last year, ayan nagsimula na ako ulit magmura. mas mabilis pa yata ang development ko ng pagmumura kesa sa development chart ng global warming. grabe na ako magmura ngayon...ang dami ngang nasasaktan pag ako nagmumura kasi parang i mean it daw. hindi bagay sakin ganun...gusto ko siya matanggal...

ok din na mexperience mo.