mas

lagi na lang may MAS magaling, MAS ok, MAS maganda, MAS masaya, MAS MAS MAS..
paulit ulit ko na lang sinasabi ang salitang MAS. para mawala na siya ng ibig sabihin. kasi sabi nila if it becomes everyday then it becomes normal...making you feel "so what"

MAS masakit pag naikumpara sa taong wala kang laban. tulad ng ganda ng nanay ko.
hindi ako galit sakanya, wala akong sama ng loob. alam ko maganda siya, at pag nakita niyo for sure you'd agree. i have nothing against her being pretty...its the people around us comparing me to her.

MASakit. kasi walang akong laban. kasi hindi naman ako pwede lumayo sakanya. kasi the people who compare me to her are my friends, her friends...i cannot defend myself kasi ill look stupid.

bakit kasi sakanya pa ako nanggaling.

tren

nakasakay ako sa jeep papuntang UST.
e.rodriguez - g.araneta - q.i - welcome rotonda tapos espana
bago pa makaabot sa UST yung jeep tatawirin yung daanan ng tren.
Isang beses sa inaasahang pagkakataon...nastuck yung jeep sa pagtawid dun sa riles. parang cartoons, andun ako nakasakay sa siksik na jeep, yung jeep nakatigil sa may riles at paparating na yung tren...ramdam kong bumibilis ang pagtibok ng puso ko pero hindi ako gumalaw sa kinauupuan ko. inaantay ko pang magflash back ang buhay ko pero wala... hindi pa ako mamamatay

kahit nakita ko na sa sine ang scenaryong iyon, kahit yung pa ang maging rason ng aking pagkamatay. it doesnt happen in real life all the time.

Im a fan

Toto Villaruel, a young unconventional wedding photographer, continues to make a buzz in the industry as he perseveres to master what he loves to do. His unique, or should i say “weird”style of framing moments has captured the attention and hearts of many couples, aspiring wedding photographers and ummm everyone. 3 years in the business, with 200+ weddings, and i-dont-know how many engagement sessions…you will definitely look forward to his next posts and blogs :)

I did :) i even remember telling myself “i want to be a great wedding photographer someday,” after seeing his shot of a couple in Enchanted Kingdom years ago. The playfulness, the drama, the awkward/different framing, the complex to the simple kilig shots. Easily he defined his style, and quickly you can say “kay Toto Villaruel yang shot na yan!” Getting to work with him was super nakaka-pressure, but with that experience I instanly became a fan of not only his work but how he works. He talks to the couple as if they were long time friends; makes them feel comfortable when he instructs them how to pose or just be themselves in the shoot; his laugh will make you laugh so we’ll altogether laugh and that breaks the ice. He’s very professional. And its a guaranteed fun-filled shoot with him :)

For the past weeks, i’ve been observing him and the people around him, especially in the online community. Every time he gets a message in Tumblr saying a thank you for a follow back, he tells me “I just made someone’s day today”. And he’s happy about it. Or when 3 or more people likes his post on FB, he goes “woah madami naglike” as if he’s not used to people liking his posts. When he gets a number of inquiries in his e-mail, he’s like “dami!” like he doesnt get that a lot. When someone says “Uy Toto!” when we were walking somewhere, or “papicture naman po” thinking he will take the picture when that someone is asking for a picture with him :) A person happy with the simple things :)

Im a fan of his works, how he works, his personality, his character, his artistic-self but most of all, im a fan of his love :) YIKEEEEEEEE!

2months together and parang ang tagal na namin. I tell you its hard not to fall in love with him everyday :) but *ehem* sorry but he’s mine!

Ricardo, Happy 2nd monthsary. Thank you for making me part of your day, week, months and life. I appreciate your effort of going to my place everyday, feeling ko ang ganda ganda ko. A big hug for always smiling at me, whenever i ask you to smile! The Lord has given me favor for giving me someone who’s great like you :)

I know you are destined for greatness sweetheart. Im excited! and as a fan, i will gladly document it. I will always be here to support you, and support what you love to do! well, ummm 50-50 sa shopping! haha

I love you so much!

your no.1 fan

-NICOLAI

ipit na luha

hindi nababago pero nahuhulma
kayang itago sa tamang halaga
hindi naman talaga nawawala
permanenteng maskara
tago ang tunay na itsura

mahirap magtago sa pangalan ng iba
lalo na't kagandahan at perpekto siya
masakit na maikumpara
nakakasakal ang paghanga ng iba

sana maintindihan ang sakit
ang hiya, ang ipit na luha
sa bawat paghanga sakanya
titignan ako ng mababa

hindi kagandahan, ang hirap pala.
kahit anong tindig o ngiti di uubra
mananatiling tahimik
dahil ang sikipsikip na sa dibdib

siya ang pinanggalingan
bakit ako naiba?
ako ang bunga niya
bakit ako ang naiba?