sarili

tatakbo uupo gugulo ang buhok titingin iiling tatawa ngingiti
hindi ko alam saan pupunta ang layo ng tinatakbo niya
hahabulin ang hininga hahawakan ang ulo di malaman ang gagawin niya
andaming tumatakbo sa isipan dahil hindi pa kayang mamili sa iilan
hawak hawak ang kanyang mga braso nilalamig sa kalaliman ng gabi
hindi na niya maramdaman nawawala na ang tamis ng alaala
uupo sa gitna ng kalsada titignan ang kapiligiran
hmmm wala naman talaga siyang hinahabol kundi sarili niya.
maglalakad itutuloy ang paghahanap pero saan nga ba papunta?
parepareho nating hinahanap ang taong mamahalin natin
pareparehong andito pa rin tayo lahat naghahanap
pero sa katotohanan ang taong mamahalin ay andiyan lamang
..at yun ay ikaw.

Usapang lasing

Nagkataon na araw ng puso ko bukas. araw ng mga puso natin.
naiwan kaming tatlong magkaibigan, hindi kami iniwan pinili lang namin na hindi sumama.
Dala ng lungkot, nagkayayaan uminom. takte tatlo lang kami uminom.

Inuman friend 1:
"Namimiss ko siya" wala ng lalabo pa sa statement na yan pag ang nagsabi niyan ay isang lasing. malabo kasi bibitaw ka, tapos mamimiss mo. malabo kasi kaya mo sabihin samin pero sakanya hindi. malabo kasi hanggang hangin lang ang abot ng salita mo, walang pupuntahan.

Inuman friend 2:
"baka mapakilala mo naman ako sa friends mong girls?" sagot ko "mahalin mo muna sarili mo kasi hindi mo kakayanin na pag nawala na yung taong mahal mo. yung lalagyan mo ng pagmamahal, pag nawala yun mawawala ka din"

Ako: sa bawat tagay at shot na nilalagok natin...onti onti natin natatanggap ang mga katotohanan na pilit nating tinatago, at tinatakpan ng ngiti at saya.

Inuman friends: wow...lasing ka na nicole

ako: siguro nga. Cheers

Pagod

kelan mo ba masasabi na dapat ng tapusin? dapat ng tigilan? pag pagod na? kasi walang ng drive to go on. wala ng energy to move, to do the same things or to think of new things to make it work. tatanggapin mo na lang na pagod ka.

i dont believe in such. im not saying this kasi im a person who is full of energy but listen...ang pagiging pagod means may ginagagawa ka at nagagawa...simula lang yan. nagiging pagod ka lang kasi walang nangyayari, i mean walang return yung ginagawa mo. hindi dapat yun, hindi dapat ganun ang habol mo. Do it because you want to not because you want something in return. Ang hirap pag ang heart mo expectant kaya lahat ng ginagawa mo baliwala.

prinsipyo ko sa buhay is someday i will be loved the way i love others. Kaya in every lover i love, every friend i love i give them what is due them, what i feel for them. I love you because i love loving you, if you dont feel the same way its okay :) but when i said i love you it means forever. i know myself being capable of giving the "unconditional love" because i have experienced unconditional love. how hurtful it is, how lovely it is. loving beyond what hurts you, loving beyond the loveliness. I dont force anyone to love me, i dont force myself to love anyone i just love them.

i never get tired of loving people even if it causes me heartaches, its all part of the plan. its just the beginning.
its like the arena where your strength is tested.

Pagod na ako, naiiyak nga ako eh. kasi ang pagod na nararamdaman ko is yung pagod dahil nahihirapan na ako sa mga kasama ko...i may hate people but in reality i cant, im mad yes but it'll pass. ang hirap! gusto ko ng mangbitch lang pero sandali lang yan. this is just the beginning...

lahat ng problema natatapos :)

DON’T GO HIGH SCHOOL BITCHIN

This for you NOSE-faced-girl,

I never say this from the heart, but this goes for you.
It goes with my deepest sincerity…FUCK YOU!
I was a friend to you, I put up with your self-centered bitchiness, listened to every I-always-have-a-reason-why-im-wearing-this-and-that, and your feeling pretty but you’re really not and you’re never ending great-er-ness than the OH-SO-LAME ME …well guess what bitch!?
You’re my inspiration…ill work hard enough and ill make sure you’ll need help from me…and when that happens…ill give you help, don’t worry. IM A FRIEND, but ill give you the lamest one.

Its ok to bitch me up like this, NO ISSUE. Im not very good with defending myself, but to disrespect my mom that way? I could push you off the wall and make sure I break your face more.

Sira na nga, sisirain ko pa. hindi ka man lang papasa maging hipon.

-SINCERELY YOURS, WITH MUCH PASSION AND LOVE
The girl who never did anything right in your eyes but the one you referred to as almost perfect. (I have a video to prove it)