to drink

to drink is to feel
is to be numb
is to cry
to laugh and cry
to drink is to hear
to be deaf
to escape
to drink is to be in a trap
to drink is to look you in the eye
to drink is to talk
to drink is to speak the unspoken truth inside your heart that you've been wanting to let out
good or bad...
a door to say it the way you want it without thinking :)

lets drink

Thailand trip: 3 in 1 package

last night, some of my friends gave me a surprise visit/inuman. Drinking is my vice but not my addiction. I just seem like an alcoholic but im not :) what im addicted to is my friends, the company. i like being around them, i mean who doesn't? ok so we were having a real good time. i was sitting in my chair looking straight but it felt like i was riding a roller coaster ride. i drank too much. oooops i drank soooo much that i ended up hugging the toilet and showering it with my love from inside out, if you know what i mean?:) Trying to make myself stand after hugging the toilet, made me feel lonely and not so excited of what saturday and the weeks after may bring. this is when i proved that a toilet is a thinking chair.

i get a loud wake up call from my dad "Giannina! tumayo ka diyan!" to cut it short, i got scolded. i wasnt suppose to drink for a month but i did and i got wasted. i didnt tell them i was going to drink. basically its my fault. im sorry. "Give me one good reason kung bakit papayagan pa kita pumunta ng thailand?"

I get to travel, i get to dance. and i get to do one of my dreams...to teach kids hiphop. Riding that plane means a dream becoming true. (the 3 in 1 package)

Thailand, here i come.

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Thank you Lord for giving me this talent, and thank you for making dreams come true :) lab yu sobra mehn!

Stoplight

STOP LIGHT

Malayo pa lang kitang kita green na ilaw. Humarurot ang kotse ko palapit ng palapit naging yellow…bumagal ang takbo ko. dahan dahan ko ng inaapakan ang breaks. Tapos pula…hanggang dun lang ako sa linya.

Sa malayo maganda siya, nakasama mo ng matagal nakikita mo na ang detalye ng mukha at pagkatao niya. hanggang huminto ko kasi hindi mo pala trip.

Ang dami mong alam salita ka ng salita. Sa dami ng makakausap sa mundo nagsasawa ka na kakapaulit ulit. Ayan na nahimik ka.

Uyy uso bili ka, suot ka naman. Pormado. Lakad ka ng lakad sa mall may dip ala bagay sayo. di mo na sinuot ulit yung “uso”

Bagong yosi ka lang. isang stick pa, isang stick pa. isang kaha pa. isang rim pa. hala sige hits lang. hanggang sa hirap ka na huminga. Titigil ka o mamamatay ka.

Isang shot lang, isang bote ng beer. Masarap? Shot pa shot pa! isa pang case ng red horse. Hanggang gumegewang na lakad mo…dahan dahan ng prumoproseso ang utak mo. tapos wala na, past out.

Sa umpisa masaya kayo. harurot ka naman “forever na toh” Tumagal ng tumagal nawawala na ang kilig, dahan dahan ng nawawala ang pagmamahal. Tumigil ka hinayaan mo na siya tumakbo, dun ka na lang kung saan ka huminto.

Go bata ka pa, slow down tumatanda ka na, stop matanda ka na

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bakit ba tinawag na stop light kung may go at slow down?

kasi kung walang go at slow down, walang silbi ang stoplight.

kung walang stop, lahat na lang naka-go, lahat naka-slow down. di na natuto tumigil

Usapang lasing

Nagkataon na araw ng puso ko bukas. araw ng mga puso natin.
naiwan kaming tatlong magkaibigan, hindi kami iniwan pinili lang namin na hindi sumama.
Dala ng lungkot, nagkayayaan uminom. takte tatlo lang kami uminom.

Inuman friend 1:
"Namimiss ko siya" wala ng lalabo pa sa statement na yan pag ang nagsabi niyan ay isang lasing. malabo kasi bibitaw ka, tapos mamimiss mo. malabo kasi kaya mo sabihin samin pero sakanya hindi. malabo kasi hanggang hangin lang ang abot ng salita mo, walang pupuntahan.

Inuman friend 2:
"baka mapakilala mo naman ako sa friends mong girls?" sagot ko "mahalin mo muna sarili mo kasi hindi mo kakayanin na pag nawala na yung taong mahal mo. yung lalagyan mo ng pagmamahal, pag nawala yun mawawala ka din"

Ako: sa bawat tagay at shot na nilalagok natin...onti onti natin natatanggap ang mga katotohanan na pilit nating tinatago, at tinatakpan ng ngiti at saya.

Inuman friends: wow...lasing ka na nicole

ako: siguro nga. Cheers