Im a fan

Toto Villaruel, a young unconventional wedding photographer, continues to make a buzz in the industry as he perseveres to master what he loves to do. His unique, or should i say “weird”style of framing moments has captured the attention and hearts of many couples, aspiring wedding photographers and ummm everyone. 3 years in the business, with 200+ weddings, and i-dont-know how many engagement sessions…you will definitely look forward to his next posts and blogs :)

I did :) i even remember telling myself “i want to be a great wedding photographer someday,” after seeing his shot of a couple in Enchanted Kingdom years ago. The playfulness, the drama, the awkward/different framing, the complex to the simple kilig shots. Easily he defined his style, and quickly you can say “kay Toto Villaruel yang shot na yan!” Getting to work with him was super nakaka-pressure, but with that experience I instanly became a fan of not only his work but how he works. He talks to the couple as if they were long time friends; makes them feel comfortable when he instructs them how to pose or just be themselves in the shoot; his laugh will make you laugh so we’ll altogether laugh and that breaks the ice. He’s very professional. And its a guaranteed fun-filled shoot with him :)

For the past weeks, i’ve been observing him and the people around him, especially in the online community. Every time he gets a message in Tumblr saying a thank you for a follow back, he tells me “I just made someone’s day today”. And he’s happy about it. Or when 3 or more people likes his post on FB, he goes “woah madami naglike” as if he’s not used to people liking his posts. When he gets a number of inquiries in his e-mail, he’s like “dami!” like he doesnt get that a lot. When someone says “Uy Toto!” when we were walking somewhere, or “papicture naman po” thinking he will take the picture when that someone is asking for a picture with him :) A person happy with the simple things :)

Im a fan of his works, how he works, his personality, his character, his artistic-self but most of all, im a fan of his love :) YIKEEEEEEEE!

2months together and parang ang tagal na namin. I tell you its hard not to fall in love with him everyday :) but *ehem* sorry but he’s mine!

Ricardo, Happy 2nd monthsary. Thank you for making me part of your day, week, months and life. I appreciate your effort of going to my place everyday, feeling ko ang ganda ganda ko. A big hug for always smiling at me, whenever i ask you to smile! The Lord has given me favor for giving me someone who’s great like you :)

I know you are destined for greatness sweetheart. Im excited! and as a fan, i will gladly document it. I will always be here to support you, and support what you love to do! well, ummm 50-50 sa shopping! haha

I love you so much!

your no.1 fan

-NICOLAI

Roller Coaster

kung takot ka, sa pilitan sumakay. pag handa ka naman, ramdam mo ang kaba, takot at excitement sa puso mo. may feeling kasi ako na pag sumakay ako ng roller coaster pwede ko ito ikamatay, may risk.

umupo ako, na may ngiti sa mukha. kahit wala yung kinakabit for protection sasakyan ko pa rin 'to. tapos dahan dahan ng umaandar, para bang nilalambing ng gulong yung tracks. dahan dahan din bumilis at biglang aaaaaaahhhh aakyat baba ikot waaaaah babagal bibilis bwebwelo akyat baba kaliwa kanan ikot ikot aaaaaah aayaw ka pero gusto mo pa talaga hihilain ka tapos aaaaah biglang baba dahan dahan titigil.

pagod ka na, tapos na ang roller coaster ride pero bumalik ulit ako. at uulit ulitin ko ito...dahil hinahanap hanap ko ang thrill ang sarap ang excitement ang rush ang di madescribe na pleasure na nadadala, parang naiihi na hindi. kagigil, ang saya.

hanggang...*uwaaaaaak* bakit ako nasusuka?

pintura

pumunta ako sa hardware store para bumili ng pintura. tinignan ko ang swatch, at hirap akong piliin kung anong kulay ng green ang gusto ko. Pinikit ko ang mata ko at naimagine ko na ang kwarto ko na may pader na berde. "Kuya itong green" inuwi ko ang lata sa bahay tinignan ng mabuti at naisip, "mehn ang ganda! pero hindi tama"

bumalik ako sa hardware store at kumuha ng blue, yellow at puti na pintura. inuwi ko ng may ngiti at excitement sa mukha. naiisip ko pa rin yung green na gusto ko pero iniisip ko mas maganda ang kalalabasan ng halo nitong mga ito.

sa isang malaking lalagyan naglagay ng blue, at saka nilagyan ng yellow. makikita mo yung diffusion of color how it blends with each other, blue trying to get in the yellow and vise versa. hinalo ko, hinayaan, hinalo at habang tumatagal dagdag ng blue, dagdag ng yellow at nakukuha ang tamang green :) minsan naooverpower ng blue ang yellow, pero ayos lang may yellow pa para ibalanse ang lahat pero masyadong green. kaya dagdag ng white, importante na may puti to bring that right mix and right lightness to the harsh shade thats been happening.

ng maubos na ang panghalo, kung ano man dinatnan nagpaghahalo ko yun ang pinahid ko sa pader. it might not be like the green na gusto ko nung una, but this is just right.

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may ideal something tayo sa buhay, pero hindi naman yun talaga ang gusto mo. mas maganda yung darating lang, dahan dahan mong makikita kung ano ang kalalabasan ng lahat. and it would be prettier and much more perfect than your ideal one. minsan sobrang gulo, kaya kelangan ng magbabalance. andiyan si Lord para gabayan ka, kayo, tayo. things will fall into place.

I miss you

isa pang 3-words na mabigat sakin ay ang I MISS YOU. i could tell this to anyone anytime, but i could let someone feel this rarely. Iba ako makamiss, i make time to let you know i really missed you. you dont have to miss me back, you just have to be there too.

macho kung macho pero pag dating sa mga close friends ko dun ako mas vulnerable. they are the ones who can really break my heart and have me crying for days. mga boyfriend? pfft no need for tears, they come to your life and they can leave. but friends? they come and stay.

"its one thing to appreciate, to care and to love but to be appreciated, to be cared for and to be loved is another"