Open the door

its hard when its all inside and you cant bring it outside.
im in no hurry, i wait for the moment to come.
i dont force it, but when its needed i make it happen.
i try to keep my cool everytime you're around, and damn its hard

i think about it and maybe you were'nt brought up that well
do i have to understand the lack of breeding you have?
i should understand if it were my fault, if it was me who wanted it.
why understand where you came from when you really dont mean a thing to me?
well you used to be but when i turned my back and someone saw the quick switch of a smile to a glare...
you were gone.

it all heavy inside. and if i was just not thinking, id step out.
i never wanted to fit in, its never me who would let myself in.
someone opens the door for me, and walks me right in.
i am invited and not pushed in.

if i dont fit, ill find a bigger space. even if it means me being alone.
im no drama queen or emo
what i mean is
becareful with the choice of words, or the words you say because these things come back to you.
and when it does ill make sure you feel the way i feel right now.

ingrata

hindi dapat binibigyan ng oras ang mga ganito, hindi inaaksayahan ng panahon. Sinasayang lang nila ang lahat, mga abuso, at sarili lang ang iniintindi. Hindi marunong magpasalamat, at magbigay pansin sa mga nahihirapan, sa mga nagbibigay ng tulong at oras na sinasakripisyo para sakanila.

Eh paano na kung mawala ang mga taong inaasahan niyo mga ingrata?

Mga matataas ang ihi, na walang namang rason para maging ganon. Walang inatupag kung hindi ang inaalagang reputasyon na wala namang pinupuntahan. Hindi kayo tatagal…

Puro salita walang gawa. Taas noo niyo pang sasabihin na nagdradrama ang tulad ko, eh kung sa alam ko na mas magaling ako sayo. lakas boses niyo pang ipapaalam ang sermon na kahit sa sarili niyo hindi ninyo maitupad.

hindi mo makikita kung gaano ka kaswerte kung sarili mo lang ang tinitignan mo. tumingin sa paligid kasi madaming tumulong, madaming namahagi, madaming rason kaya ka andiyan. Pero wala, palamunin kasi ang utak mo…palamunin ng iisang bagay, tungkol sa sarili mo lang. pano ka uunlad? Pano ka aangat? Wala ka ng pupuntahan diyan ka na lang.

ako na nagsasabi, hindi ka na gagaling. malalaman din ng buong mundo na puro porma ka lang. puro salita. puro ikaw. nakakasuka